What is your favorite Tamil film song?

Read in Ferrari's blog and immediately posting this...paatu pathi ezhutharaku kasakuma enna :-)

[In no particular order]

* Uyirilae enadhu uyirilae - Vettayaadu Vilayaadu
* Mun paniya mudhal mazhaya - Nanda
* Uyirae en uyirae - Thotti Jaya
* Mazhai mazhai - Ullam Kaetkumae
* Kaadhal Rojavae - Roja
* Roja poonthotam - Kannukul Nilavu
* Chudidhaar anindhu vandha sorgamae - Poovellaam kaetupaar
* Enna satham indha neram - Punnagai Mannan
* Mandram vantha thendraluku - Mouna raagam
* Mayil pola ponnu onnu - Bharathi
* Vaa vaa anbae anbae - Agni Natchathiram
* Kaadhal vandhadhum kanniyin ullam - Poovelaam un vaasam

and old songs na...

* Paadaadha paatellaam paada vandhaaL - Veerathirumagan
* Aaasayae alai polae, naam elaam adhan mela - poombugaar?Thai piranthaal vazhi pirakum
* Unnai kan theduthae, un ezhil kaanavae ullam naaduthae - Kanavanae kankanda dheivam
* Singaara punnagai, kannaara kandaalae - Mannaadhi mannan

and so on ..

J

New entry to my home :-)

Well, there are so many new entries to my home as part of the home setup process :p But this one is special to me as it gives me company the whole day. I was all excited day before yesterday when I got this delivery. Woo hooo :-) sema sound, gum nu songs elaam kaetutu iruken :-) Vaettaiyaadu Vilayaadu "Uyirilae enadhu uyiralae", Anniyan's "Ayangaaru veetu azhagae", Thiruda Thiruda "Chandralaekaa", Pudhiya Mugam "Naetru illaatha maatram ennadhu". OMG -- Sooooo nice to listen to songs..I just LOVE that..apdiyae, it gives me the feeling of flying in the air..ennamo achieve panna maathri oru happy feeling....manasae light'a irukum..:-)

Idhula nethu Tamil songs kaekrathaa, Telugu va nu vera poatti enakum A kum LOL :D This one is a 3 cd player, so oru combination la kaetom ;-)

J

En samayal arayil ...

Naan samaitha items :-) we had a guest at home last week..and I made Beans saambhar, Potato curry and Rasam...All came out very well :-) saapida unghaluku koduthu vaikalai, atleast photo paakreenghala? :p

Idhebdi iruku? :-)

First thing I liked in US

After I came out of the NY airport, we got into a bus to come to NY port authority and caught another bus to come to NJ. Bus evlo nalla iruku ingha :-) ppl following the queue, adichu pidichu elaam eraama, whoever comes first to the bus stop had to board the bus, huh? good :-)..Driver'ae ticket kodukaraangha :-)...kootam illama, standing kooda avlo illai....reading lights....stop vantha, buzzer vera...OMG..too much :-)
After all these things, people _thanking_ the driver when they get down -- awesome! I liked it soo much...romba mariyathaaya...it sounded new to me...enaku sollavae varalai first :p

first few times, I tried and said it purposely while getting down...and nowadays, feel panni naanum solla aarambichuten...casually varuthu ippo :-)

J

Is it only for me?

Indha Jerkin'la zip podarathu enaku mattum thaan romba kashtama irukaa? porumayae poyiduthae...hhmmm

Change

wanted some change to my poor stagnant blog. munnaadi maathri ezthuthara flow'vae varalai....but still, whenever something good/bad happens in my life, adha blog'la ezhuthanumnu thought mattum inum iruku :-) paaakalam.

J

Surprise in Dubai !

My flight route was Hyd - Dubai - JFK (NY)...I had a 2 hrs halt at Dubai and I had to change the flight....After I got down in Dubai, I got into the bus, listened to the instructions and got down in Stop 1 to catch the connecting flight. After the security check was over, I climbed the elevator to reach the information center (to find the Gate number of my NY flight).... all these happened with some fear at heart, cos I was all alone and everything looked gigantic in Dubai.

After I found the gate number, I was slowly walking with my eyes searching for gate number 11...Suddenly, I saw someone familiar standing near a coffee shop...I was surprised for a moment, and I couldnt believe my eyes-- first time I have "experienced" this statement !!!

Yes, it was Illamaran, my batcheee, watching me with a pleasant smile :-):-) YAYYYY that was soooo nice to see our ppl in an unknown place, with an insecured feeling....Ah, how to explain it, I dont know....I was continuously asking myself, "is this happening really?"...

I started feeling at home after I met him :-):-):-) very comfortable :-) that "out of country, alien" feeling was no more :-) I happily walked with him, talked for sometime, and reached my gate entrance....He waited with me in the queue and both shared our happenings in life...He too had his flight to Singapore at the same time...So, we bid adieu to each other and I continued with the other security checkings....

I thanked God for getting someone for me, not someone, a very nice, understanding friend to vanish my frightened feeling...I had a wonderful rest of my journey :-)

Thanks sooo much, Batchee :-)

take care everyone,

Loving,
J.

Last ...

29th September 2006

Last signature in the attendance register
Last entrance using my access card
Last e-mail from my office id to friends
Last call from my extension to my Amma, Sis and A
Last print out
Last xerox
Last code commit
Last scribble in the white board

My last day at office ...

Felt very senti the other day. Eyes were capturing the images of ppl, places, my desk, my comp etc etc.

Stayed late after a long time. Came down and waited for auto for the last time ..
Carried all my stuff (books, cds, table top, calendar) from the desk..
Cried for sometime at my desk (after everyone has left)..hhmm 5 yrs and 2 months in the same company, my first job...sollavaa venum :(

They took my access card, id card, home pc, my phone etc etc
Ah, losing your rights, properties--romba kashtam :(

"ethu nadandhadho adhu nandraagavae nadandhadhu
ethu nadakiratho adhuvum nandraagavae nadankirathu
unnudayathai ethai izhandhaai?
etharkaaga azhugiraai?
ethai nee kondu vanthaai, adhu veenavatharku?
ethai nee eduthaayo, adhu inghirunthae edukappatathu

...
ethu indru unnudaiyatho, naalai adhu matrovarudayadhaagirathu
mattroru naal adhu veroruvarudayathaagirathu.

idhu ulaga niyathi"

[Not exactly the same lines...but recollected the meaning from Geetha Saaram]

super la? en situation ku suit aayiduchu -- mmm me taking a deep breath !!!

Peace,
J.

Yahoo Audibles

Achachooo, never knew that the Yahoo Audibles has something in Tamil too :-) happened to browse the category list today and was surprised to see Internation->India->Tamil.
Loaded and checked all. ROTFL :))) sema siripu :D
the way it pronounce, hahaha :D

samples that I heard and laughing:

yooo, kindal pannathae
chellam chellam
ayoo, ungha intelligence paathu kannu koosuthu

:))))

sari sari..romba sirikaren :-)
Have a good weekend.

byee,
J.

Am Back!

High time to write here :-) back after wedding, Visa interview--two major tasks! Ah, hectic time. Experienced all good and bad feelings. Trying to remember/recollect only good stuff and living now. So far so good. Result ennamo nallathaa thaan iruku..aana, athu kedaikara varaikum irukara process, adhaan matter'ae.

btw, got my Visa :-) hamma, all the preparations for that..marakavae mudiyaathu. A kita irunthu documents vaangharuthukula pothum pothumnu aayidichu. hhmm. adhellam periya kadhai. adhaan first para la sonnen la, trying to live with the good memories nu.

ok, will try to post regularly. Hope a few ppl still visit this blogsite. Thanks!!
epdi irunthaalum, inimae blog panna thaan poren...dont have ppl to share. and cant share a few things with others..sonna, reply panuvaanghalaanu theriyala..athuku vera varutha padanum...illana hurt panra maathri oru badhil varum....ethuvum sollama irukalaam'na, enaku ethavathu aayidum pola iruku...so no choice other than venting out here!

enna ezhutharaenu enakae theriyala..i want to scribble whatever is coming to my mind now and continue my work. Ignore this post. chacha, oru break'ku apram oru nalla post poda mudiyamaa pochae :-) nalla mood la irukum pothae ethavathu ezhuthi irukalaam :-)

anyway,
take care,
J.

Am back

I came back on Sunday after a hectic 2 weeks vacation (?). I actually wanted to post abt my vacation but I was soo busy the other day when I left Hyderabad.

Anyway, just wanted to say a hi to you now :-) Hope things are fine at your end.
will write if I find time this week(end).

byeeee,
J.

Do you think so?

I was in an extremely *bad* mood since this weekend...Ah, I hate to say this...but cant help, i have to write the facts here. I was getting hurt and hurting A and he too added his part uff :(..and today morning he called me, I was soo happy to see his name flashing on my mobile and took the call but didnt talk to him properly. Adhukum I was feeling soo bad, didnt know whom to blame..Grr.

I came office very late thinking that A would have slept by then. paatha, he was online..OMG! Immediately, came down from my heights of bad feeling and was about to plead him to talk to me nicely.

As always, after I started venting out how bad I was feeling, there was no response from him. I told him all these expecting that he would console me and konjam aaruthalaa pesuvaanghanu. paatha, shock! He typed this:

"I think you need someone like Rajnikanth in Chandramukhi ra...there are some deep beliefs and assumptions in you which are making you down every now and then. books or me or anyone can't help handle these"

adapaavi...enaku azharatha, sirikarthaanu therla..but smiled at myself for becoming an hopeless character..hhmmm

but thats completely true!! I am badly going down very frequently these days...frequency eppadi na, in seconds, minutes'la kooda iruku :( I pity A! ennoda pada mudiyalai :-)

J

Recent happenings and date coincidence

Haii, long time since I posted..chachacha!

btw, I got my license day before yesterday..yeyyyyyyy :-):-)

ya, generally busy with all these stuff + work hhmmmm. This week went relatively good compared to the past few days hehe :p

I was just thinking abt the things which happened recently in my life and I was like happy to see the coincidence with the dates which I remember :-)

Learner License - SK's wedding day - April 22nd
Visa interview date confirmation - My close friend's bday - May 31st
Got my licence - my father in laws' bday - June 14th

And
my office (currently working) joining date - my sis bday - 16th July

like that ..:-) Now, whenever I see the documents, I can see the date which is already familiar to me and I am like yayyy :-)

Have a good weekend everyone!

byeeee,
J

kandupidichen kandupidichen

Whenever I go down/feel bad, I was wondering what to do to bring my mood back to normal. Listening to songs in a bad mood is usual for me, so it stopped helping me, like no difference only. Car driving, hhmm enna solrathu, I need to be cautious all the time and making me not to enjoy the drive. When I was going in auto the other day, saw couple of temples on the way, and thought that I could come and sit there for sometime and see if it helps [yet to do it].

Yesterday, dont know why, I wanted to hurt myself, so thought i would go home by walk. After the strenuous aerobics class in the evening and bad cracks in my foot, I wanted to take the risk. Moreover, there is a **heavy** traffic in the road connecting my office and home, so I am waiting for auto for more than 1 hr these days. All these made me proceed with my decision.

I started walking, found way for myself in the traffic, seeing the big big banners in the road, cars, ppl, humming some song, crying sometime. I have climbed the flyover and when I reached the centre of it, there was a nice breeze and I felt like I have reached some heights in life and it was refreshing. I read somewhere that exercising/dancing/physical activities in general, motivates our emotional energy level. I found it working (as I believed it) after I walked for some distance and when I started gasping for air. I didnt really think anything positive or encouraged myself. I simply walked, walked, walked. avlo thaan. After that, there was no pressure in the heart/mind which I had when I started walking, and I felt very normal, calm breathing (neither happy nor sad type).

Good one!!! I recommend this practice :-) Inimae I will go for a walk.

Have a good weekend everyone!

J

Jokes

Hai hai hai :-) long time since I posted. Generally busy, dull (vera ennavaa iruka mudiyum :D)..Everytime I wanted to post, I thought I would be emotional and write something serious..so didnt do that.

anyway, heard some jokes in a comedy program in Vijay TV and felt that i would post here :D

oru payan, avanoda thaathaa (Grandfather) kita vanthu kaekraan

payan: Chinna veedu'naa enna thaathaa?
thaathaa: Edhuku da kaekara?
payan: Chumma therinju vachukalaamnu thaan.
thaathaa: Theriyaama vachukarathuku per thaan da chinna veedhu.

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#1: konjam time ennanu solreenghala?
#2: sorry sir, enaku time paaka theriyaathu.
#1: paravala, atleast, chinna mullu engha iruku, periya mullu engha irukunu solungha, naane time kandupidichukaren.
#2: 2 um watch la thaan iruku.

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And, this one, I read in Aanandha vikatan during my school days, and I still remember this.

Patient: Doctor, vara vara enaku indha nyabaga marathi romba adhigama poachu, Doctor.
Doctor: kavala padaatheengha, sari panidalaam. Aama, ethanai naala indha Vyaathi iruku?
Patient: Endha Vyaaadhi?

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LOL :D

ok, bye for now.
will try to post regularly :-)

J

Lesson for today

Actually learnt yesterday, got time to pen down only today. Dont believe or try to get happiness from other's thoughts or actions. You dont have any control over them and you end up getting hurt if it does not happen. So, dont expect it. It does not work out, I mean, it does not work out. Try to do things--which you can do "yourself"--for which you have rights to blame or appreciate or do whatever.

Trying this is hard for me cos I always get that *clound-nine* happiness when somebody remembers me and do some lil thing (I mean it) for me. I dont know why, I am brought up like that or practiced my mind like that. Its really a tough job for me to start practicing this lesson at this age. Anyway, I am going to try !!

J

someone please clarify this

I was going through some link today..In that, they have listed all holidays in US and wrote a note saying "Holidays that fall on a weekend may be observed on the Friday before or the Monday after."

is that so?? idhellaam too much. India'la holiday weekend'la vanthaa, "oru naal company close panra velai kooda ila"nu soliduvaangha..kadupaa irukum...last year I think, most of the festivals were on weekend hhmmmm

J

makkaL

oruthar kashtapattu panra nallatha pathi makkaL paesa maataangga...
theriyaama nadantha thappa mattum oodhi oodhi perusaakidaraangha

makkaL manasu avvaLavu dhaana?

Hey kuruvi, chittu kuruvi

A sparrow was visiting our balcony for sometime and started building a nest for its family. It has put a nice basement and built a cute, kutty nest. After sometime he stopped coming and the nest was empty. Amma was worried and kept saying abt that. I made fun of it saying "Rent adhigama irukunu gaali panidicho ennamo...etc". Yesterday, Amma said that she heard his voice in the morning and confirmed that it has come back. "Kuruvi koodu kattinaa veetuku nallathu..appa thaan nammma kooda veedu kattara maathri irukum...see, athu vantha udanae car vaanghitom" nu -- Amma's dialogue...naan - sari sari :-)

anyway, reminded of the beautiful song in "Mudhal Mariyaadhai"

"Un soadi engha, adha kootikittu
engha veetukuLa vandhu koodu kattu
ponaana veeduuuuu, kattu ponnaana koodu
pondaati illaii, vandhu en kooda paaduu...

Hey kuruvi, chittu kuruvi"

:-)

Have a nice weekend!

J

NeeNda naaL kanavu

I always wanted to drive playing songs alound for a long distance esp while raining...Wooooo thats heaven for me to imagine -- immediately gives me some emotional energy :-) see, even now :-)

And a part of it happened yesterday. Yes, for the first time, I drove the car _alone_ with all those initial hiccups. Played "Thoti Jaya" songs (nothing special, generally saw that cassette in front and picked it). The two lovely melodies "Uyirae en uyirae", "Yaaridamum thondravillai" and the peppy song "Jaari singaari" -- I enjoyed the drive completely. Something I did for me, myself for the first time :-):-) Its actually a nice feeling !! I recommend it to others too. hehe :-)

I am waiting for my license without which I cant take the car in the main road. sterday, chumma engha area'la kutty kutty sandhu elaam suthitu irunthen.

License vantha apram, I am planning to take for a long distance whenever I feel bad....to do something I love and change my mood myself without expecting anyone...happppaa, atlast I got a company now!!! till now, mood change always depends on some person whom I cant expect to be with me all the time.

anyway, adhi story (as telugu ppl say) :-)

J

Mango - my fav fruit

We have been buying Mangoes since April (season vantha piragu) but everytime we got disappointed by the taste. Did not get that usual sweetness. Tried different shops, areas but in vain. Yesterday, I tried one thinking that it would be of bad taste. But, to my surprise, it was tasting sooooo sweeeeeetttt :-) Yehhh yummy yummy :-) Ate 2/3 mangoes at one go and got satisfied :p Biting the fruit, absorbing the juice and eating it, watching TV is a good time pass. I enjoyed that yesterday :-)

Yaan petra inbam peruga ivaiyagam :-)

J

:'(

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

dont know what else to say :'(:'(

Level of coincidence

A former colleague, a good friend/well wisher of mine got married couple of years back. The couple was expecting their first kid sometimes this May. His birthday was on May 10th, so I have mailed my wishes. He replied back saying that they were blessed with a baby girl on the same day. yahhhh Father and daughter sharing the same birthday.. cool no :-) I felt happy for him :-) intha maathri coincidence konjam peruku thaan irukum la...mmmm

Have a good weekend!

J

Punnagai Mannan

After a long time, me listening to Punnagai Mannan songs. what a lovely music, lyrics. Anytime, anywhere enjoyable songs. SPB voice - Awesome. Sis and I are great fans of SPB. My heart and mind is calm, balanced after listening to the songs now.

From "Enna satham ..",

"mannavanae un vizhiyaaL peN vizhiyai mooodu
aadharavaai chaainthu vittaaL aarirarooo paadu
aaariroo ivar yaar evaroo
badhil solvaar yaaro"

And, before the second stanza, a beautiful piano, flute combination ending with a high pitch saxophone piece -- Ultimate!!!

"udhatil thudikum vaarthai, adhu ularnthu ponathoo
uLLangaL thudikum oasai, isai aagaathooo
...
...
yaar ivargaL...iru poonguyilgaL...
iLam kaadhal maangaL

enna satham indha neram..."

OMG, I am enjoying :-):-) sooooo many beautiful words in Tamizh..veryy sweeet :-)

Generally, selected all melody kinda or 80's songs today in my playlist and peacefully working!

J

T(amil)elugu

Today I was talking to my colleague, who is a Telugu guy. I generally talk to him in Telugu + English. inaiku, unknowingly this has come out of my mouth. Something he said that has been done already. For that, I asked "oh, so idhi erkanavae aayipoyindhaa?". He understood and said "Yes" also LOL :D

For a moment I felt that something is wrong. Then I realized its a Tamil word inbetween. pakkathula irukavan enna nenachaano - "intha ponuku Telugu theriyum nu nenachen, ippadi thaan Tamizh'a nadula poattu poattu pesudhaa". Ah, felt embarrassed LOL :D

Achachoo, varunkaalathula enna enna kalanthu pesa porenoooo :D

J

Expressions

Read this in SK's blog today

//If its happy news, I have to tell it to people. No, I dont boast, its just sharing a good thing. I get excited at very small things. Or rather, even a small incident can mean a lot to me, a word or appreciation, a warm smile, a kind gesture..such things can make my outlook change directions one eighty degrees.//

How nicely written and how it has expressed the recent thoughts running on my mind..thanks :-) Glad to have a person like you who matches my frequency, mindset a lot! Advantage to see my feelings in words which I cant write myself :p

[dont know if its worth worrying but I do worry for it]

Recently, I have been hearing news from people that they got engaged. How happily they share the news to everyone and get teased by people. I feel like an odd man out in this regard. After people at home have decided to have the function, I too wrote a big list of people whom I have to invite from office, my team, my old PL etc etc. A and I wanted to finalize both the list. After waiting for so many days, suddenly A said that he is going to invite only his *close* friends and he gave a nice, big explanation for it. As a dumb girl (which A says always), it made sense to me too by then and drastically reduced the count and invited a very few people.

Most of the people whom I talk to dont know that I got engaged, that too with A, our colleague. I feel like sharing now, but this news in no longer fresh. I cant or dont blame A, cos he never asked me not to invite my list of ppl. Hhmm, given that he is not here now, only I face people and whenever they came to know of this news from someone and ask me why I didnt tell them, I will have to answer which is like not very exciting to me and abnormal. Ah, all confusions within myself. At the end, I lost that chinna chinna happiness :'(

J

Blog Naayagan

[Somehow this thought came to my mind day before yesterday]

Remember, the argument between Nayakar and his daughter in the movie Nayagan? Athae scene, blog world pathi irunthaa epdi irukumnu oru chinna karpanai.

Daughter: "ippadi daily post poatutu irukeenghalae, nenja thottu sollungha pa, neengha seiyarthu thappu'nu unghalaku thonalai?"

Nayakar (kitta vanthu, thalaiya aatitu): "illa, thonalai. 4 per comment panraanghanna ethuvumae thappu ilai."

Nayagan theme music continues ..tan tan tan tan tan tantatan,...tadaiiiinnnnnn

hehe :D
J

Vaetayaadu ViLayaadu

I have been listening to all the songs of this movie. Every song has its own beauty and gives a nice feeling whenever I hear it. Its been a long time since I enjoyed _all_ the songs of a movie. 1 or 2 songs pidikum but intha movie'la I like all the songs and I havent got bored after playing it continuously since 15 days :-)

Great work by Harris and other ppl worked on it! veryy sweeet lyrics and music - Kudos!

J

P.S Glad that I didnt post anything abt my bad mood and directly jumped to the music post that changed/cooled down my mind :-)

Climate in Hyd

Ufff, extremely hot these days..Happened to go out today and I was like about to become bad and wanted to scream. Getting hot air even during night time. I have kept two bottles filled with ice water near my head. Got the AC effect and slept nicely. hehe :-)

Chennai'la epdi irukoo..hhmm cos of the humidity, there will be more sweating ryt? Hyd is better in that sense but today ennamo bayangra sweating ingha kooda..hhhmm

J

100th Post Celebration!

hehe :-)

Noticed the post count recently and I was surprised :-) This is my 100th post..woo hooo :-)

J

Bought a car :-)

[Drafted on Thursday but waited to upload the pic]

Preowned Maruthi 800 AC 2001 model. wanted to learn properly before getting a new one.



Did pooja in the nearby Aanchanaeyar temple today evening. With the big garland, lemon maalai and other pooja stuff, the car is parked in our apartment basement now. yehhhh :-) People at home are happy. Me all smiles to see their happiness. wanted to share it with you :-)

take care everyone!

J

Yesterday ..

My brother has come from Chennai as he is not feeling well. Viral fever maathri iruku. Though the temperature has reduced, he is very tired and his knee is aching a lot. Anyway, this post is not abt his health or bad mood.

Yesterday, my sis took him to the hospital. When the doctor asked him a few questions abt the symptoms and the previous treatment and all, he asked

Doctor: "Injection engha poataangha?"
Brother (dulla): "Chennai'la Doctor"
Doctor (kadupula): "Ada, un odambula engha pa poataangha"

My sis came home, described this incident and I was LOL :D. She said "angha siripu varala dii. ivan paavama ukaanthutu irunthaan. ippa solrappa siripu varuthu" :-)

[I tried writing the conversation in English, but Tamizh'la solra effect varalai ;-)]

Have fun!

J

Punch

[Trying not to reflect my mood and want to post something good!]

Last week, I was down with slight fever and a bad-blocked throat. I had to get something for A, so asked my sis to accompany me. Amma and sis always like eating out, me not that crazy. After completing the shopping, thought I would get her something to eat, so we both went to a bakery. Actually, I took a break from work and I wanted to come back for my Yoga class. So, I was alerting myself not to eat anything.

Sis always like spicy eatables, esp chicken, so she was glimpsing through the items. The so-far-good eyes of mine turned to the other side and noticed the ice cream categories. Immediately, I changed my vision (huh?!) to something else and warned myself "J, this stuff not only spoils your today's class but makes your yesterday's tiring-abdomen workout in vain. Dont get distracted". I obeyed that alarm.

After couple of minutes, I asked myself "OK, let me atleast go and check the ice cream catalogue alone and get the satisfaction of eating it. no harm in that ryt?". Innerself accepted this request, so I proceeded to the counter. My eyes didnt only notice the written-items kept on the top of the transparent refrigerator but saw the variety of items kept inside it. Ah, colorful to eyes to see the white pogai (what to say in this context?) covering the ice cream varieties and mouth watering too!!

Again to myself "Let me have only one kutty ice cream. that doesnt affect my exercise no?.". This time, no permission, only information :-). After sometime "So, only today I am going to have, why not try a different variety? let me have fruit punch instead of regular icecream" ;-) Yes, I have selected my fav fruit, Mango flavour :-)

Paid for it and waited for sometime till they prepared it. That guy got a glass full of icecream topped with a cherry and wafer. Woo hoooo :-) happaa evlooo periya glass, fulla ice cream Whewwww:-) Didnt know what to eat first and was taking the spoon, straw, wafer...my sis told "Alayaadha di" :p Quickly I ate the topped stuff. Totally forgot abt the aerobics, my goal of reducing some kgs, abt the people in the bakery, more importantly my fever, cold. Oru oru spoon'aa started eating and enjoyed the yummy, the only-unhurting mango fruit "punch"!

J

Aaatha naan pass aayiten

Sister and I have started learning car driving. Ah, having fun early in the morning :-) Dont know why/how I enjoy. probably a new stuff; change in my daily routine. Having my sis with me is too good. nice company I have for this class. Both of us getting up early (5.45Am) and tease each other when we drive, oattify others in the road when we mess up things etc etc :-)

Anyway, we went to get our learner license today. Our instructor has asked us to stay very cool and said that we need not prepare for the test. But the owner guy asked us to read the sample questions (230) in some book and then wanted us to appear for the test.

My sis took a look at all questions yesterday itself. Surprisingly, me who take every silly thing/test seriously, did not prepare till today morning. We left home by 10AM, filled some forms in the driving school, and started to RTA office. Chumma started reading that book and was answering wrong for most of the questions I tried :-) my sis was making fun and giving correct answers. "kadaisila naan mattum pass aayida poren"nu vera kindal panna.

When we were waiting outside, I slowly covered first 100 questions (dho da:-)) and was like completely cool. Angha kooda koothu adichutu irunthom :-) We saw ppl giving the test and ccoming out with the learner licence. My sis then commented "ivloo sirichutu, apram licence kedaikaama veliya vanthaa, elaarum kevalama nenaipaangha..illa di?" nu. udanae naan "pass'o fail'o, sirichutae veliya vanthudu. apdiyae chumma namma bag la irunthu oru paper kaila pidichutu vathuru" :D

Our turn came, appo kooda coola irunthen. All the questions were from the book and we both scored 18/20 each. Yipeee :-)

Ammakitta we asked to pray for the test ;-), so we called her after coming out of the hall. Appo amma sonna statement adhu "enna, 2 perum test mudichutu, Aatha naan pass aayiten'nu phone panreenghala" :-)

Have a good weekend!

J

timepass

Yesterday, I went to cafeteria to have cofee, met a few Tamizh guys (all kutty pasangha--juniors), konja neram etho nakkal panitu irunthen. One guy joined me while coming back to my place and said

"neengha periya Techie nu kaelvi patten"
Naan (manasula): entha pakkie apdi sonnathu

LOL :D

apram oru maathri posh'a reply vera, "no no, apdi elaam illai"nu :-) naethula irunthu eppa nenachaalum siripu vanthutu irunthathu. wanted to post it here :-)

J

Getting back to normal

Slowly getting back my dull, down, crying mood :'(:'( work panra moodae illai. Feel like going home and sleep for sometime. But I want to complete a long-time-pending task before this week. Naethu kooda sariya work pannalai. Ughhhh :'(

Bday - Morning Surprise from A

After talking to A till 12.15 in the morning, I was browsing, bloghopping till 2AM and slept. Got up by 6'oclock with my brother's call. Continued attending calls from my cousin brother, mother-in-law. I was all sleepy even after talking to them :p Started sleeping again. Our door bell rang; thought its our watchman's announcement for drinking water or milk guy. So, didnt care to get up and open the door; Amma got up and went, she came to my room and said, "somebody is standing there with a bouquet. Should be for you. Poi paaru"nu. Tadaah! avlo thaan, me woke up :D Rushed to the entrance, opened the door.

"J?", the person asked. I was eager to grab the flowers to know the sender before answering his questions, hehe :p I nodded my head; he handed over the beautiful, pleasant Yellow + Red roses :-) He doubled the happiness by giving another parcel to me, I was like "This one too??" :p That guy left. The gift was wrapped with a dark red color gift paper and I saw the gift note on it. My eye balls were moving left and right to read all the lines at once (Adada):p Firstly, it saw the signature "H" (Husband :p) and confirmed it was from him :-). I felt really senti, happy, blushing etc etc after reading the actual note (see below pic) :-)



"Naakosam puttaeva? -- enakaaga pirandhaaya?" How creative, sweet message :-)

I came to the hall. Amma was also eager to see the gift. Guessed the gift and I was restless to confirm it :p Opened carefully as to not to tear the wrapper. Yipeee! it was a big, cute, sweet, yellow teddy bear :-):-) Me all smiles :-):-):-) Shouting "Yehhhh" and my mom was making fun of me :-). I kept the teddy bear on my lap, pampered it for sometime :-) I wanted to talk to A immediately to let him know that I got his gift, so logged on to YM and was expressing my happiness. He called me immediately and was simply smiling to see (or hear) me happy, singing, hurrahing and pampering him :-) :-)

It was really a surprise, cos he does not like celebrating bdays and all, so thought he would not take pain to gift me :p I had a tough time getting a gift for his bday too.

The stuff that I got as my bday gift:



Flowers, Teddy bear from A, a greeting card from my brother and a kutty purse cum handbag from my mother-in-law.

Last but not the least one--other than the above stuff, I got wishes and blessings from a few relatives and friends (via phone calls, e-mails and blog). Thanks to them too :-)

Cheers!

April 9th

Birthday Time Vs mood graph!

Note: Click on the image for clarity.



Glad that I didnt touch the down line :-)

Cheers,
J.

Krish's tag

Krishna has tagged me to write a story in 55 words.

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Title - Thanks!

If there was a post reg tagging in somebody's blog, she used to see if her name was specified. But everytime it was a disappointment for her. She felt more happy when she saw J as first name in Krishna's post. She wanted to dedicate the tag post for him as a token of thanks!

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Krishna - I meant what I said! Thanks a lot for tagging me (you were the first one to do that) and sorry for taking it up so late! (Me, now dont give me a weird look hehe :p).

"Amma Vanthaachu"

My guys are back home. Yehhhhh :-):-) They had a _nice_ time at Chennai and Vellore. Engha amma'ku orae pallu thaan face'la. all smiling only :D Paati veetuku + avangha cousin sisters veetuku elaam poyitu vanthathu avanghaluku santhosham.

Ukaantha edathula nalla saaaptutu vanthutu, ippa she is cribbing like a small kid to cook here :-) "Cha, evloo jollya irunthutu vanthen, ippa naanae samaikanuma??" nu kaetutae irukaangha. idhula nakkal vera..she keeps telling this dialogue "naanae ezhuthi, naanae nadikanuma?" LOL :D

btw, sis is not feeling well. Her ankles are swollen and she is finding difficult to walk :( she has been telling since sometime, and consulted a doc too. Not sure whether he diagonised properly. He gave some tablets, so we took it light. Even during the trip also, she was having severe leg pain it seems. Thought due to lot of walking there. But after coming here, she started crying also :( "naan phone'la solrappa nee serious'vae eduthukala"nu azharaa :'(

Sterday mom and sis went to hospital, and came to know that it could be the initial stage of "Cellolitis" (infection maathri). Advanced stage ponaa operation pannaumnu sonaaraam. I was scared :( But for her its in the initial stages, so we can cure by antibiotics it seems. 2 days ponaa theriyum. I am a bit upset due to this.

Really painful to see the close ones when they fall sick la? hhmm

Anyways, its cozy to be at my home. am very relaxed!

Happy mood :-)

Today is going good so far. Am happy since morning :-) Most of the times, I post here when i am dull. I want to blog today when I am feeling happy :-). Day started with his call, came early to office, talked to him again for sometime. we didnt talk to each other for 4-5 days. So compensated today :p
I was angry at him, myself for something, so tried hard not to talk to him but could continue only till wednesday and all the bad feelings dissolved within myself when he called to my mobile instead of the landline at his home and I heard his dull tone saying "Missing you di. Its been 4 days since we talked properly." sooo sweeet :-) kovam elaam engha pochunae therla :p

Me listening to the songs of a Telugu movie, Lakshmi, which I watched recently with my mother-in-law and sister-in-law. Liked couple of songs:

1. Naenu puttindhaemo neekosamae, perugindhi nee kosamae :-) I like the first 2/3 lines especially :-) other lines avlo nallaa irukaathu. I dont understand--athu reason :p

2. Thaara thaluku thaara--good music.

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Me all smiles :-)

take care,
J.

Good News!

Did I tell you that I got engaged last month? :-)

Everything happened in a jiffy. He is my colleague. We both got to interact with each other since last June/July. After a few days, he has raised the thought of both of us getting married. Didn't really expect this from him/someone and was all confused/shocked. Same time, lot of personal issues were happening at my family/relatives side w.r.t my wedding (posted few stuff here). I too thought like it would be good getting someone who likes me for what I am and understands me and my family ppl/dependancy. So, we thought of proceeding if ppl at home are ok with this. Things went well and we had a small function at my home last month inviting our close friends at work and apartment ppl.

Ours is a different story. Cant say its a usual love marriage or arranged marriage. I wonder even now :-) Spent only a few days as friends, became close friends in a short period, he has raised this thought, lot of confusions in me, wanted to let my family know abt this (Ahhh evloo kashtapatten idha solrathuku :(), if ppl at both home are ok then I wanted to develop all thoughts abt him. Dont know what to call it. Ah, all human rules and regulations :-) I always thought I would be marrying someone who is selected by my mom or relatives. Never knew I would end up with this person :p This is a sudden twist in my normal life story :-) not sure if i am conveying it properly.

Anyways, he is very sweet. Always had lot of confidence that he would marry me and live with me :-):-) will write more later :-)

He got transferred to our parent company in US and he left Hyderabad 15 days back. wedding will be early next year! me started my ground work for getting a job there.

Missing him a lot, managing work, ppl at my home, in-laws (who too miss their son). Experiencing all sort of emotions, extremely happy sometimes, sad & insecured sometimes--good and bad, all mixed up. enna solrathu. hhmm.

Thought of writing abt this once the wedding date is fixed but no patience :-) Whenever I want to write abt him or his ppl or abt ourselves I should have some reference ryt. I am becoming restless if I want to say something here but when i think that the ppl who read it dont understand what I write, I stop myself posting it. irukara prachanaila why avloo kashtam? :-) I have only this place where i can write whatever i want to. Already I am not that good in writing--third person elaam poattu ezhutharathu is difficult for me :p So, thought of posting this news today.

athaan story :-)

Note: I wrote abt "my" sweet person only in this post :-) (8th point thavira). His mother tongue is Telugu and he does not understand Tamizh :( Ahh ippadi oru Tamizh patrulla oru ponuku epdi elaam vaazhkai amaithu paarungha :-):D

byee,
J.

pat in the back

He was waiting for her in the apartment basement. "Why didnt she come yet? Her usual time is 9-9.30am, what is she doing at home?" he was restless and seeing the steps for her arrival. She used to say him a "hi" whenever she goes to office and while coming back too. He likes to see her smile, her affection for him, a caring "hi" only to him. He feels proud for getting a share of love from this girl. He reminscies all the happy moments that HE spent with this girl, all the love this girl showed for HIM and felt bad for her missing those moments and HIM. He felt happy that atleast he is able to exist in her vicinity. Thinking all these for a few mins, he again started looking at the steps, thinking "Girl, come down soon...".

She got up late today, spent time with family and started by 10.15am. She was rushing to office, came down, forgot her usual hi and crossed him. He did not expect this from her and starred at her sadly. She went till the gate and realised that she missed something, stopped there for a while, remembered him and turned back. He smiled at her. She walked towards him and told "U think I forgot U? How do I miss U, sweetie" and patted on his back and left office. He blushed :-).

He then thought to himself "how long would I be getting this love? will the new owner or his family treat me like this?". He, the to-be-sold Hero Honda bike continued thinking of his present owner who has left his wife/family here and has gone to some foreign country to work. The bike faced the entrance gate and started waiting for her (the owner's wife) arrival again!

Kaadhal Kondein

Me carry lunch box from home. Always ask my mom to give proper food kept in a proper way in the box too, so that there is no embarrasment when I have with someone. I need not say too, cos mom is a good cook and has an art in her hands; she keeps our home very neat and always concentrate in cleaning the home.

oru naal ...

That day, Amma cooked some parupu (Ah, forgot the name) in the morning which has been soaked all through the night. Lunch ku idly nu nenaikaren. and side dish intha kurumaa koduthaangha.

Scene location: cafeteria

I went to have food and my friend came and sat with me. Me happily opened the lunch box, I sensed the kuruma smell with that paruppu smell too. I realized that its cos the whole morning time the box has been closed and obviously we cant avoid the smell.

My friend slowly told me "I think the food is spoiled, some smell is coming out of it". I was like Grrrr. Asked him to move to another table if he cant sit there and I continued my lunch. Felt bad for sometime but after I came home, it was all fun explaining it to my mom and sis :-)

"kadaisiyaa ennai kaadhal kondein Dhanush maathri aakitiyaeee" nu amma kita kathitu irunthen LOL :D

J

Kirukals for today

[Note: Just bear this post if you dont understand anything. Me thought or tried not to post the dull stuff always but circumstances force me to. Wanted to vent out so that I will sleep well for today]

* "Everything is happening for our good" -- nice quote to remember, but _hard_ to follow when you are facing the bad situation. Experienced the pain today. Immediate thing came/coming to my mind [as most ppl do] is "enaku en ippadi aaganum?. naan enna thappu pannen?"

* Circumstances/fate make us take some decision and leave us abrubtly. After we come back to reality, we will ask ourself "is that me who did that? how could I do that?". will feel like a magic only. ya, life is a magic. idhaan Baba movie'la vanthuchaa? "elaam maayai"--thalaivar solra maathri :-)
Ah, how come, started with a different mood but using smiley and all :-) "idukkan varungaal naguga" la?

Missing my mom and sister. Scolding my dad to leave us like this or lived a careless life which lead to _all_ my insecured problems, always scared of something, not able to differentiate good/bad ppl, easily getting tamed by ppl who show some little care for me and trust them easily and want to hold them for lifetime and what not! I deserve this--what else can I say. Never knew that the day would end like this.

Ok, let me try to post some funny stuff which I wanted to write today morning.

lets have a peaceful week ahead :-)

My mom and sis are coming this Thursday. still 3 more days to go huh? Ufff.

J

Song

Happened to see this song ("kaana kannil" from the malayalam movie, police) in SS TV. Such a lovely picturization! Need not say about the locations in Kerala--soo pleasant for eyes. Would chill us out if we see/listen to these kinda songs in this hot climate or in a bad mood.

Try it out!

J

Dual monitor

Yippeee! me got a dual monitor just now :-) company has started providing to all senior technical staff -- blush blush :p

My desk is looking gigantic, hi-fi now. Am experiencing a good, fresh feeling for having a new thing at my place. sweeet :-) want to play with it for sometime. but me got to complete somework before today afternoon. So, let me work with only one monitor for now :-)

konjam over'a enakae theriyuthu..engha poi mudiya pothoo LOL :D

Have a nice day everyone!

J

Back to aerobics

Yehhh, I am gonna start my aerobics classes from today. Leg is ok now, so thought of doing atleast body conditioning and yoga if not the jumping and dancing cardio classes.

intha dancers elaam romba naal aadama irunthutu, thideernu etho sabadhathula oru naal salangaya dhoosu thatti eduthu podara maathri, I have taken my socks and shoes today LOL :D

sari me got to go. catch you later.

tata :-)

Happy Morning :-)

Haiii, a very fresh morning to all :-)

I woke up by 6'o clock today which is not possible when am at home :p Ah, how nice the sunrise is, the early morning weather, the breeze--blissful :-) Heyyy, u know what, we have treadmill here, so me practiced for 15 min today and burnt 60 calories :-) I know its very less but its good to see the calories reading when it increases. wooo hooo :-) am going to continue that. mmmm apram, helped aunty cleaning the house, had coffee with her, talked to her for sometime. Am going to get ready to office now.

sari chumma chumma kashtapadakoodathu...en thaan sila per kutty kutty vishayamku elaam kashtapadaraanghalo chachacha ;-)

Have a very nice week ahead :-)

tata,
J.

Bad luck yesterday

[Another reason for my bad mood]

Amma and sis wanted to go to my native place. Booked tickets for them long time back. Yesterday was busy with packing, shopping. 8'oclock was the train time in Kacheguda. I was busy with the person who came from TataIndicom for the broadband connection. Amma is generally lazy and doesnt get ready unless somebody--always me--shouts at her. After done with all stuff, we left by 7'oclock from home. Lot of traffic and signals in the way and was a bit tensed that they would miss the train. Amma was making fun abt something and made the situation normal. Sis also commented that "thirumbi vara porathuku ipdi sirichutu poyitu irukom". Me gave the instruction that they shall get into any coach and go to AS2 internally. I had to get the platform ticket too. Reached the station by 7.55 or so, mind was all tensed up.

Me paid the auto guy, sis struggling to carry the luggages, went inside the station. Heard the announcement that blah express is in blah platform and was about to leave. A porter there asked us abt the train and after we said, he was shouting at us that its abt to leave and asked us to give the bags. I thought he wanted to get money from us and unnecessarily alerting us. I ran to get the platform ticket. Meanwhile, sis gave bags to the porter and that guy was hurrying us to cross the platform and told there was no time to climb the bridge. Me already a person who gets tensed up soo soon and this situation was not an exception. My sis being thin jumped down and started crossing the railway track. Me managed to do the same and cant expect the same from my poor mom. Train was there till then. I was trying to find a place where my mom can get support to climb up. I too was carrying kutty kutty bags. My mom managed to climb up and immediately we rushed near the train. The train started moving!!! ufff it was hard to see/realize that we missed the train. Never happened before. Appa kooda, I was trying to make amma and sis get into the train as it would be moving very slowly but that would be risky. Sis was cool enough and told me "Relax Relax". Amma was blinking and asked me "ipdi kooda aaguma ma?". she was about to cry. Even a simple disappoinment can easily make her/me cry. Sis is not like that.
Hhmm everybody was seeing us. commenting abt the way we came. Had my mom/me tried to climb as soon as we crossed the track, we wouldnt have missed the train. Just a min difference. Ahhh horrible. Sis has reminded me of a fwd which tells the importance of time which goes like this:

To realize the importance of a sec, ask an athlet who missed the first position..
To realize the importance of a min, ask someone who missed the train..

blah blah

we realized it !!!!

Later, came down and cancelled the ticket, got 50% money back and was wondering wat to do. Amma wanted to cancel the trip itself cos of this. Me and sis thought for a while and enquired abt the bus travels nearby. All buses were booked as it is a school holiday season here. watever. managed to get tickets till Tirupathi. My guys have to go to Chennai from there. I had to go my relatives home after they leave. It was 9ish by then. Got tiffen for 3 of us, gave enough instructions to my mom and sis as to how to be careful while travelling in the bus. They are new to travelling alone. Always I used to be there but this time, I couldnt go with them. I generally dont trust anyone and be _extra_ cautious when I travel. but amma and sis apdi illai. Didnt have confidence at all to leave them alone. Sis was giving me konjam dhariyam and asked me to proceed.

I got an auto and started to my relative's place. Called up my brother, uncle and informed abt the train.
people went to sleep. Me didnt get sleep for a long time. Didnt have any number to call to. Nobody was reachable :'(:'(
My aunty was asking few questions and was answering with the blocked throat. The more she asked abt the train and mom/sis, the more heavy my heart was and finally I bursted out. She noticed that I was crying and was asking me not to do so. But I couldnt. My nose too was blocked and was trying hard to breathe. Sat for sometime, starred at my mobile and read the SMS I got from "my person" and was crying more only. Ugghhhhh :'( went to loo, washed my face with cold water and came to hall and sat for sometime. Aunty got up immediately and asked me "what r u doing there?". Happpaaa, I was all scared and felt out of place:'( Thought I would have gone home and come here a day later. I was helpless and went to bed again. I was weeping weeping weeping, which ppl say that nothing changes if you cry, but it helped me getting my eyes tired, removed some burden out of my heart, calmed down by heart beats and made me sleep finally!

Am alone

Alone--mentally alone!

my family is out of town. me staying at my relatives place. Have companion to talk to but not personally :'( totally out of place. All adding up my mental stress and all places are haunting. how do I explain it--I dont know :'(. I dont have friends--close friends--at work. Dont want to yap general stuff to my hi-bye friends. I need "someone" (physically existing nearby) to whom I can go and say "I am feeling bad, please do/say something"--like the kid in the movie Anjali says "enaku azhuga azhugayaa varuthu, ethaaavathu pannennnnnnn". Other close friends are busy with job and family. Agreed that everyone has their own problems but to me now mine is difficult to handle. no mood to do any stuff. Heart is heavy all the time. To be frank, its aching. Feel like dying only :'( Controlling my tears. No person nearby who matches my frequency, so that I can do stuff to avoid this mood. Just passing every sec with great difficulty :'( :'( feeling jealous if I see people going in a group, chit chatting, enjoying themselves. office, home, other places--I hate to go.

how many books do I read or hear advice from others :'( why am i not able to change myself. Why is it difficult for me to overcome these senti feelings? why am i not happy for whatever I have? Hhmm

GMail

You guys are able to open your gmail account?? I couldnt since yesterday afternoon. But I do receive (g)mails from others which means they are able to, ryt? Help!

J

Update: I am able to access my GMail account now!!

Naadhaswaram

I have a collection of Namagiripettai Krishnan' Naadhaswaram. After a long time, today, after I came to office, I played a couple of songs from it. OMG, it was sooo refreshing, serene:-) Ah, instrumental pieces bring up different kinda emotional energy within us. Esp Naadhaswaram with Mirudhangam, which we (atleast I) generally hear in our relatives wedding where we used to be in a very good mood, with our relatives, wearing new dress, jewels, seeing ppl in all smiles, early morning sunlight--all positive stuff ryt. That could be the reason for boosting our energy level when we listen to these kinda music again. what u say? romba romba MangaLagarama iruku. I am experiencing it today :-)

Have a nice day everyone!

J

Two wheeler

planning to buy a two wheeler. Which one is the good choice?

Change :-)

Yehhh, template maathitennnn--Idhebdi iruku B-)

was browsing few templates. My fav color is green, so idha try pannalaamnu thonuchu :-)

Ogay, tataa...Have a happy weekend :-)

J

Update: Changed the template again. The clarity of text was not that good in the earlier one, though the backgroud was too cool. Anyway, hows this?

Insurance & Family

I didnt insure myself till last year. I always treated it as a long term investment scheme and why I need to wait to get the returns after 20/30 years nu, I was not interested. we had a session reg new tax related stuff couple of months back. In that, the guy has mentioned that if you are the only earning member in the family, then you should insure--its mandatory. we cannot compensate the loss of the person in the family, but atleast the family will not have monetary issues because of his/her demise till they recover from the incident. All known facts only, but when I heard this time, I took it konjam seriously and mulled over on that and realized the importance of it.

Finally I got a term policy last month.

I was talking to my mom, told her that these are all the investments that I made till now, and I have a insurance policy too which covers X amount. I told her that I am keeping the documents in this file and elaathulayum nominee un per thaan ma koduthu irukennu solli mudikarthukulavae she started crying .."en da rajaa ipdi elaam solra"nu :-) paavam :-)

naanum senti'aana inum scene'aa pogumnu, I replied her in an authoritative tone "ithellam sonna udanae ethavathu aagumnu artham illai. U should know what I am doing, how much savings I have, how much money somebody borrowed from me etc etc"nu. paavama kaetutu irunthaangha.

Generally, the head of the family should discuss all these things with his wife/kids. Ennoda Appa didnt do, so we didnt know how much money he gave it others or got from others. And, after 6 years of his demise, only last year we came to know that he got a LIC policy and we got some money. But he didnt pay the premium for sometime, so they have taken some amount and gave back the rest.

Anyway, Just my thoughts ... :-)

New songs

Pongal'ku release aana songs inum sariya kaekalai...yet to pickup the good ones and make my favs :p

Sila songs, you will start liking when you listen for the first time la? antha maathri, in this movie Dishyum, one song is always asked by ppl in SS music or some tv...These words are catchy in the song "Nenjangootil" ...I liked the last couple of lines in the two para "Nenjaan kootil, nenjaan kootil, nenjaan kootil neeyae nirkiraaiiii peNae" blah blah....I liked it :-)...I dont have that song in my comp, so listening from Raaga right now. thought I would share this here :-)

btw, pudhu songs la ethu nalla iruku???

J

Karuthu

"Niraivaeriya aasaigalai kandu manam amaidhi adaivadhillai
Niraivaeraadha aasaigalai nenaithae maranam varai poraadugirathu"

-yaaro

My Amma used to write all these kinda quotes in a diary and we have pasted few ones in the wall too. Read the above one today morning and related to my situation. Felt like someone has slapped me in the face.

J

Scribbling ...

Me in a very bad mood since yesterday. Getting irritated often, very impatient, want to be alone (as I am most of the times), want to feel bad for being alone, want to cry aloud, want to run away from this place, want to be very adamant and irritate everyone around, dont want to depend on someone else for my happiness, dont want to expect someone to spend time with/for me, shouting at my mom (poor person!) for silly things too, want to divert myself from this mood, trying to do something different but everything turning down useless, trying out different combination of songs in my playlist, controlling myself not to do all the above said things and act like a normal person -- sounds like totally gone case ryt?

Whatever, thats what my condition right now. I dont have any place other than "my" blogspot where I can scribble all these...

Yesterday I was trying this and enjoyed that time -- Thanks Vikki. seekiram answer enna'nu solu...porumayae illa hhhmm..

Ah, venting out really helps for girls...I am feeling better!

J

Dont know what to call it

I have started attending some class (details later) in the evening. So, me going out of office everyday by 6.15pm and coming back by 8.30pm.

And this was my timing when I attended some java class in Radiant institute in Tambaram when I was doing my college.

U know what, I didnt even think abt it today, but the same environment, climate etc etc made me automatically reminisce those days. OMG, I enjoy it :-)

same summer, same travel, same kind of attending class, taking notes, answering in the class, coming back in the busy traffic in the night...Ah, I miss my college now ...hmm..For couple of hrs, I just went from this software coding world to my own lovely cozy college/hostel life. Have you ever felt it? Its not generally thinking abt the old life urself but the circumstances/environment getting you that feeling.

Appa, we used to come to mess directly after the class, have food, chat for sometime in the hostel room or bund (under the tree) ..Those days ..Oh no :(

which one is correct?

You wanna say that you can count something using fingers (viral vittu enna koodiya alavu). How do you say that?

1. count with fingers
2. count by fingers
3. count on fingers

which is the correct usage?

J

Books

no home pc. didnt want to watch TV. So, utilised my time at home reading couple of books last week.

1) Jonathan Livingston Seagull
2) The Emotional Energy Factor: The Secrets High-Energy People Use to Beat Emotional Fatigue

Ultimate books for ppl like me (who goes down often).

me trying to improve my reading habits. completed the first book; very small one. That itself gave me tons of happiness :-)

And I have started 14th chapter (25 chapters actually) in the 2nd book.

came with full of high spirits today morning :-) Everything seems to be possible and I am in a mood to complete watever work assigned to me. ennamo, cant explain that happiness, energy level :p

btw, I have to take (the same old) class for this year' freshers tomorrow. As I have done it thrice, I am not _that_ scared this time. Anyway got to refresh the topics. started that now....

take care.

And my leg is ok now. Managed whole day at office today. thanks for all your comments!

bye,
J.

kaal kattu

padicha udanae kalyanamnu nenachu irupeenghalae ..adhaan ilai :p

nijamaana "kaal kattu" poatu iruken :(

slipped down from the steps when i went for shopping this monday. Had a ligament tear in the right leg. wasnt able to walk till sterday. so me on leave for the past 4 days. Doctor suggested not to walk much for 2-3 weeks..too much. inaiku apdi konjam nadaka mudinjathu, so came office for some time. Home PC problem vera. athanala officela koduthutu, apdiyae mail check panitu polaamnu.
next mondayla irunthu should be back to work.

hhhmm only when we experience pain, will realize the importance of each part of our body.

take care everyone !!

J

My perfect lover

Whoosh tagged me (Thanks ra) ..

Here I go:

1. should be caring, understanding
2. should be pampering me frequently ;-)
3. should be confident (enaku thaan ilai, let him have;-))
4. should be encouraging (me having lot of negative thoughts, i badly need someone to keep advising me to come out of my bad feelings)
5. lot of sense of humour (adhu nammakita adhigamavae iruku :p) and playing, chumma fighting with me :-)
6. should be possessive abt me. adhukaaga over'a ilai :-)
7. should be loyal.
8. should know/understand Tamizh ( I liked this point in Vikki's version too. I can express my happiness/sadness "properly" _only_ in Tamizh :-))

I am done :-)

[breaking the rule] am not tagging anyone :p

Enjoy,
J

P.S. Krishna, I remember your tag too. will take up soon :-)

observation

I read this statement somewhere

"Don't take anyone's behavior personally, and you'll be much better off. "

Its true. But looks like its easier for Men and not for poor ladies (atleast me). is that so? Am getting hurt often by taking others comments personally and its taking _hell_ lot of time to come out of it. pasangha'luku elaam athu easyaa??

oru murai dhaan

I liked the lyrics in this song 'oru murai dhaan' in Thavamaai Thavamirundhu.

there are lines which explains the happiness or a mistake done by a person. And every context ends with this line accordingly.

"oru murai dhaan, oru murai dhaan oru sila magizhchigal oru murai dhaan"
...

"oru murai dhaan, oru murai dhaan oru sila thavarugal oru murai dhaan".

It might not sound that good for the first time. But it does have a very deep meaning. Very thoughtful lines for the youth, what parents expect and all. romba yosanai pannitu iruka mood'la indha paatu kaekarappa I liked it.

Cinema does help us impersonating ourselves committing a good/bad action. nallathu panrappa athanoda consequence and kettathu panrappa athanoda vilaivu elaamae oru character'ku nadakarthu paakarappa, cinema is giving a chance for improving ourselves ryt?

childhood memories

we used to make fun of my sis by talking abt this incident.

[This has happened when she was in l.k.g or u.k.g i guess]

scene idhu thaan:

Home work elaam amma soli kodupaangha. Intha 'naming the thing' maathri etho chapter. Picture and pakkathula athu enna'nu ezhuthi irukum. while teaching that section, there was a mention abt scorpion (Thael in Tamizh). After some days, my mom was cleaning the utensils. Appo elaam keezha "manai" mela ukaanthu, veetu pinnaadi kazhuvaangha. My mom was doing that and my sis was playing in the water it seems. apdiyae ennamo rhymes elaam solitu.

After some time, my sis was telling very politely to my mom "Amma, aniku bookla kaatiniyae, adhu varuthu". Amma onumae serious'a edukaama, "ozhungha rhymes solu. chumma pesaatha"nu solraanghalaam. ava solrathu lighta eduthukitaangha. konjam neram poruthu, marubadi en sis "Amma, aniku bookla kaamichiyae adhu unkita varuthu"nu [hahha]. Appo thaan ennanu paatha, angha Thael vanthutu irunthaathaam. apram adichutaangha, adhu vera vishayam :-)

ippa kooda we say this and LOL at home :-)

Have fun everyone!

J

yesterday

I was at home. Amma has been talking talking talking blah blah blah. romba neram porumaya kaetutu irunthen. Then i started reading something, appo kooda pesitu irunthaangha. suddenly, i said 'vaaya mooduma konja neram' (lighter tone). apram i continued reading. medhuva amma said 'chinna vayasula un vaayila thaen (honey) thadavi thadavi kozhandhai paesaathaanu paathutu irunthen. innaiku adhu ennai vaaya moodu nu soluthu. hhm'nu. (siruchutae)

Both laughed after that :-)

[I realized my mistake and understood her expectations]

Vaazhgha VaLamudan

Just thought I would start this year's first post with good wishes :-)
new year ku post panrathukulayae pongal vanthudichi :p

anyway, hope things are fine at your end. Happy 2006 :-)

Puthaandu sirakattum, magizhchi pongattum !!
Iniya pongal nalvaazhthukkaL!

Anbudan,
J.